Outpouring

I want God to pour out His Spirit all around me...in my heart, in my family, in my Church, and in my city...I really have a vision for this happening.

But, the truth is, I would do the same stuff whether He decided to answer in my generation or not...whether he decides to answer this week or next, this month or next, this year or next...I would carry myself the same way...reaching to grow in agreement with His leadership, reaching to grow in my understanding of worship, reaching to serve the helpless and innocent and hurting...reaching for more of Him in my life...no matter whether it seemed small or big. I would do the same stuff because HE is worth it. Whether He answers or not, He is worth the reach.

It is worth it to waste my life on Him, just to make sure He doesn't find me wasting my life when He moves...to be in it with Him is everything.

It is easy to get caught up in whether or not God is, or is not, going to "do something"...the truth is, He is doing everything already.. I'm breathing, the sun is rising, the birds are singing...

I'm wanting to see a move of God that blows my mind, but the truth is, He is worthy of my whole life's desire right now...He's the point, He's the source, and He's the reward.

The point of revival is to know him, the irony of revival is that I don't have to wait to know Him!

Revival is for the harvest...what makes me ready for that is my own threshing...internally... the harvest of my own soul....my own wrestling out the why behind the what of what I do.

I want to search God's heart and bring Him out of mine what He is looking for. He's looking for intercessors...that much I am sure of. Jesus isn't OK that the earth is mostly missing the point of the hour... the point of the trouble... and the answer to the trouble. I want to intercede for Him to get HIS desire...I have no doubt I'll find my heart satisfied in the process of just trying to answer His.

I want to learn to love the process....

Isaiah 59:9Therefore justice is far from us,

Nor does righteousness overtake us;

We look for light, but there is darkness!

For brightness, but we walk in blackness!

10We grope for the wall like the blind,

And we grope as if we had no eyes;

We stumble at noonday as at twilight;

We are as dead men in desolate places.

11We all growl like bears,

And moan sadly like doves;

We look for justice, but there is none;

For salvation, but it is far from us.

12For our transgressions are multiplied before You,

And our sins testify against us;

For our transgressions are with us,

And as for our iniquities, we know them:

13In transgressing and lying against the LORD,

And departing from our God,

Speaking oppression and revolt,

Conceiving and uttering from the heart words of falsehood.

14Justice is turned back,

And righteousness stands afar off;

For truth is fallen in the street,

And equity cannot enter.

15So truth fails,

And he who departs from evil makes himself a prey.

Then the LORD saw it, and it displeased Him

That there was no justice.

16He saw that there was no man,

And wondered that there was no intercessor;

Therefore His own arm brought salvation for Him;

And His own righteousness, it sustained Him.

I am unwilling to leave Him alone in this...I have no strength...I bring nothing to the table but my desire...but I'll bring what I can just to see what He might do with it. He always does a lot with a little.