|City on a Hill - Writings for Refuge

As my relationship with God matures, what I find my heart wants is not for Jesus' to give me what I want, but to give me WHAT to want. If my desire is in sync, my desire becomes my reality. Psalm 37:3Trust in the LORD, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. 4Delight yourself also in the LORD, And He shall give you the desires of your heart. 5Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass. If I get what my heart wants right now, I will grow in what I am right now. I want my heart to change at the same pace my relationship with Jesus is advancing, then I will grow more like Him. That's better. I don't want Jesus to just approve of me the way I am. I want Him to draw me into greatness...As he defines great. Itching ears want to hear over and over "everything is just fine as you are right now"... But those truly determined to be ready to meet him are unsatisfied with anything less than actually changing into ready....

I hear the Lord saying that He is turning water to wine. He is taking mourning doves, and turning them into Noah's doves. If you want to be safe through the flood of trouble that is coming, let the Lord know you aren't OK with it. He will turn your precious tears into the power of the spirit and increase at just the right time: Isaiah 59:9Therefore justice is far from us, Nor does righteousness overtake us; We look for light, but there is darkness! For brightness, but we walk in blackness! 10We grope for the wall like the blind, And we grope as if we had no eyes; We stumble at noonday as at twilight; We are as dead men in desolate places. 11We all growl like bears, And moan sadly like doves; We look for justice, but there is none; For salvation, but it is far from us. 12For our transgressions are multiplied before You, And our sins testify against us; For our transgressions are with us, And as for our iniquities, we know them: 13In transgressing and lying against the LORD, And ...